HIVES. yes, thats right.

so im leaving tomorrow night. we're staying the night in santa cruz and i move in on friday morning.


im freaking out so bad that i've broken out in hives. like BAD. they're all over my body. and they're only getting worse. the more stressed i am, the worse they get. IM SO ITCHY.


i can't take bennedryl because it makes me sleepy and i have to much to do to be sleepy. at least i got my project finished. all i have to do now is PACK. which really isnt that bad at all.

i hate anxiety.

i don't know what to do about matt. i got a letter from him today in which he talked about how different he's going to be. quitting drinking and smoking. going to church 24/7. 1)i dont go to church. i dont believe in religion. 2)i am going to continue drinking and being a college student.

im pretty sure im breaking up with him when he gets out in october. i love him so much, yet i know this is for the best. we're heading in wayyyy different directions.

how do you stop loving someone?